I got my breakthrough at a prayer center, but not in the way that I thought I would.
I remember I woke up one morning and I was very bad. I had breathing problems, headaches, stomach pain, etc. and I said to God: “God! You need to speak to me today! “I was desperate for something that could give me encouragement and hope. I had signed up for a service where someone would pray and prophesy over me, and I hoped that something would happen that day.
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God gave you emotions. Part 11 (Testimony part 2)
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When the first person prophesied over me, he said: “You have a big heart for Israel and the Jewish people.” This was not what I wanted to here, because that was certainly the wrong place and people. I felt how my hope that God would speak to me this day was crushed. Disappointed I thought, “God will not speak to me today.” When I came out, I sat me down and complained to God and said: “Israel! Why could you not rather say something like: “I see that you go and have gone through a very tough time, but today I will set you free? Your healing will come very soon “And given me Isaiah 53 or something like that.
Then I felt God say to me: “Do you remember what I showed you two days ago?” I had been at a seminar where a girl had received a word for some of us who were sick there, and I felt that what she said had been to me.
What God gave her was the story of Naaman in 2 King 5. Naaman was the leader of the army for the Syrian, and he was a leper. Naaman heard about the Prophet Elisa, and come to his house. Naaman had great expectations and plans about how the Prophet should heal him. But when they came to the house of Elisa, the prophet did not even go out and meet this leader of the army to his enemy, but he sends out his servant with a message that he go and wash himself seven times in the river Jordan. Naaman is insulted and it says….
11. “But Naaman was angry and went away and said, Behold, I thought he would surely come out to me and stand and call on the name of the Lord his God, and wave his hand over the place and heal the leper.
12. Are not Abana and Pharpar, the rivers of Damascus, better than all the waters of Israel? May I not wash in them and be clean? So he turned and went away in a rage.
He had fortunately a servant that was a little wiser and persuaded him.
13. And his servants came near and said to him, My father, if the prophet had bid you to do some great thing, would you not have done it? How much rather, then, when he says to you, Wash and be clean?
14. Then he went down and dipped himself seven times in the Jordan, as the man of God had said, and his flesh was restored like that of a little child, and he was clean”.
I knew that I had acted similar to Naaman. I had dictated to God on how he would do it. I had also been offended at God because he had not done it my way. I also saw that both of these things were something I had a tendency to do. I confessed that I had been trying to dictate Him and be offended at Him. When I went home to where I was staying, I came past a book store that belongs to the place I attended. I thought that I could always pop in there to see if they had some interesting books.I found a couple of books, and one of them seemed very interesting. I sat down in the garden, where I was staying, and began to read this book. The author of the book had really gone through a lot. She experienced, among other things, allergies that the doctors did not find a cure for. She was allergic to everything. Even the things in the environment as odor of perfume, carpets, paint, etc. At worst, she lived in the car. She had tried everything but nothing helped her. The disease was declared by doctors as chronic and incurable. I could relate to what she said, but this was ten times worse than me. She struggled nearly 20 years before she found the truth and was healed. I also found out later that this woman actually was a member of the prayer center I was at. So later I met with her and had an encouraging conversation.
God gave me the answer on how to be healed by reading this book.
I knew that my feelings were the cause of the disease, and especially the fear of rejection was the main cause.
The feelings I had struggled with over the years: As depression, despair, timidity, self-pity, and not least, the fear of rejection, had the devil used over the years to make me sick, and to try to get me away from the plan God had for my life. It was not God who had tested me, or send it my way! If I had at an earlier stage known what I know today, I would have never been sick. But because I did not know some truths in the Word of God, I became sick.
Although I have been a Christian my whole life, I had not been trained to trust God in all areas of my life (mainly salvation only, and sometimes I was not even sure about that). I had, among other things, never heard teaching like I give you now, about feelings. I was easily led by my feelings and I thought they were more real than what God said in His word.
My great desire with this teaching is to also help you, so you never have to go through what I have gone through, and if you are going through similar things now, I hope this teaching can encourage you to be free.
The road to freedom has not been easy, because first, I had to overcome the fear of rejection. And I met these things pretty quickly after I came home from the United States, and it has been a big fight, but I can say today that I am free from it, and the allergies are gone. I am healed!Often God does not take us out of a difficult situation right away, but he takes us through it.