Many Christians are often a bit confused about whether we as Christians have two natures. Some people teach that we have one nature before we became a Christian, and when we are born again we got another, new nature. This new nature is in conflict with the old one, and often we can still feel that the old nature is most dominant. The solution some preachers give is that you have to feed the good side of yourself, the new nature, so that the old one does not take over again. But that’s a lot of work.
I think this theology is not a good one, because it makes us fall under fear again! What if I don’t feed the new nature enough? And are there any of us who can feed it enough? I would argue that this way of thinking makes many Christians live in constant condemnation, and I was one of them.
I do a ministry in northern Thailand, and here we run a Saturday school. One Saturday when we had over 60 children, I was quite tired after four hours of driving, pick up and send all the children back home and to teach English for four hours. I started and reflected on this: Why did I have a feeling of contentment and joy?
For almost 20 years ago, when I started to think about going to another country to share the Good News. I was not thinking about doing children’s ministry. I had pictured it a bit different life? I didn’t see myself as a English teacher, or a driver. That was the least thing I was thinking off. I was reflecting over this and wonder why do I still have such a joy doing this? I could have chosen a much easier life, so why did I choose this?
Many people struggle with this question: What Is the Purpose for My Life? Or as a Christian it can be: What is God’s purpose for my life and what can he use me to? The feeling of having a purpose is an important one, because we don’t feel content with life if we have no purpose. God’s purpose for your life is actually not a difficult one, it’s easy. God’s main purpose for your life is for you to discover how much you are loved by God and to have a close fellowship and relationship with him. In fact, it is not primarily about all other choices we make and what to do and what to not do, but God’s main purpose for you is to have fellowship with Him and enjoy that fellowship.